My friend for almost 38 years, my partner in everything hilarious for the last three of those years, you have been gone now for two.
So much laughter and happiness left my life the day I said my final goodbye to you.
I am lucky to be able to still hear your laugh when my mind is still and I concentrate.
So much has happened and so much is different now. I miss your family who I also saw regularly over those last three years. I imagined that I would still see them, except for Glenn and very occasionally Jess and Jayden, I don’t. I hold Glenn’s friendship close and make sure I keep in contact with him. I’m really glad that my friendship with him has grown from just being about my bond with you. We are bonded by Jay and Bruce now as well as our own long history, thanks to you.
Thanks to that phone call you made to him in high school, pretending to be Allison Hayes asking if he liked you. Thank God you made that phone call and brought him in to my life.
Jayden is working and Jess has gone out on her own, standing on her own two feet. I know you would be proud of them as you always were.
Vikki and Adam have moved in to a great little place – you would be so happy to see her so happy there.
Your Mum and Dad are moving to Victor. A massive thing for your family, leaving the family home (finally) and moving somewhere that makes them happy. I’m so pleased for them.
Glenn is working – too hard. He needs to keep busy, to keep moving to keep his mind away from thinking too much and getting too blue. He’s finding his way, in his way. He’s about the only one that I feel like I am able to keep my promise to you to look after for you.
Rachel and Jim have been travelling a lot and loving it by the looks of the photos.
The rest are finding their own way to look after themselves.
We all miss you. The void you have left is huge and the glue that held us all together – you – is gone. Things are very different.
I remember Stace. I remember all the fun, the laughter, the happy tears streaming down our cheeks, the sad ones occasionally escaping, your octopus arms, Sandra being too nice to strange people in the hospital.
I have a new person who has come in to my life who kept throwing me the other day by saying “REALLY?!” in EXACTLY the way you said it – over and over. It made me smile, but it made me ache inside.
I love you friend.